Lately, I have been having some really emotional moments. I know I am preggers so that is normal but DANG! I have been thinking about some things that really put me over the edge crying..the funny part is that most of the time when this happens..I am alone in my car or at my desk. I guess that is when I get the most "emotional".
Like one day last week, it was raining, and I was on my way to work. I started thinking about whether the baby is a boy or girl. The name I picked for a girl has my grandmother's name in it. My grandmother passed the day before I graduated high school in 2004. Lilyann Eve is the name we picked for a girl. Ann was my grandmother's name. Well while driving I started thinking about my grandma and started talking to her..about why we picked the name Lilyann and why we spelled it that way. Of course I just broke down, started crying and had to pull over and calm down.
Sometimes, I start thinking about becoming a mother and emotions rear their ugly head again. I wonder if I will be a "natural" like some women or if I will be a complete failure. I worry that people will be watching my every move and critizing the things that I do. I am a natural worrier anyways, but with these pregnancy hormomes surging through my body, I am like a ticking time bomb! No kidding!
I know all these things are normal for pregnant women but I hate letting them get the best of me. I cry at the drop of a hat over a song, a news story, a blog entry, etc. etc.
This post is pretty random..but just thought I would share.