Thank You Very Much!

It is Thursday and that means FREE Therapy day over at Kmama's. Head on over there for some fun therapy!

-To my attorney I transcribe for everyday, I have told you repeatedly that I can NOT hear the first few seconds of the tapes when you are talking and therefore causing me to leave them blank. Thank you VERY much!

-To all my pre-pregnancy clothes that fit 2 weeks ago but not this week, causing me to wash clothes wayyy more often than I want...Thank you VERY much!

-To my clients who think that just because you cover yourself head to toe in perfume and/or cologne to cover the smell of the cigarette and/or other things you may be smoking which in turn causes this pregnant woman to be extremely nauseous and then get a headache that lasts all day...Thank you VERY much!

-To the soliciters that call our office but can't speak a lick of English causing me to hang up on you..Thank you VERY much!

Whew that feels better...Need some FREE Therapy? Go check out Kmama's blog and join in!

Finding my "groove"

Lately, I have felt like I am "out of synch". I can't get on a routine or schedule without eventually giving up or procrastinating. It is such an awful habit. And now I feel like I am drowning. I have so much going on in my life and it feels like sometimes I am literally not going to get anything done.

I work 8 a.m. to 5 p.m. Monday through Friday. My office is 35 minutes from my house so I am gone from my house from 7:25 a.m. to 5:35 p.m. Monday through Friday (approximately of course) That is 10 hours a day!!

I have an hour for lunch and on my lunch break I try to study but things distract me usually (i.e. Twitter, Facebook, Blogger, BlogFrog, anything baby related). I bring my lunch to work so I sit at my desk to eat with the full intention of reading my school work. But with the computer sitting in front of me it is hard to not want to check my Facebook/Twitter/Blogger, etc. I have tried sitting in the lunch room to eat but then my phones ring off the wall and I have tons of messages when I get back and I would rather just take them as they come.

When I get home, I want to eat and watch TV. But I NEED to study for at least 2 hours everyday. Unfortunately, my desk is in our TV room (for lack of space elsewhere) and I can't study while hubby watches TV. He will turn it off for a little while but then I eventually get bored of the silence and turn it on and no more studying gets done.

Plus, being pregnant doesn't really "help" the situation. I am usually so tired from work that I just want to lay on the couch and do nothing. I feel hopeless right now.

I have a hard time studying on the weekends that we have the kids (we only have them every other weekend for the whole weekend and then the opposite weekends we have them on Saturday nights through Sunday evening) because I don't want what little time we have with them to spent studying. I want it to be spent kissing, loving, playing with them!

So tell me...how do you manage all the things in your life? Do you ever feel like you are going insane trying to get everything done?

I am going to try and sit down this weekend and write out a schedule, that I will hopefully stick to! Wish me Luck!

P.S. Thanks for listening to my random rant!!

Happy 4th Birthday Sweet Girl!

Today is our lil girl's 4th Birthday! She was 2 when Noah and I started dating and it seems like she is soooo grown up now!! I love the little girl she has become, very sweet and emotional.

Here she is on her 3rd Birthday Party:



She is so much bigger now! We are having her birthday party on Saturday at our local skating rink. I will do a post on it after the party!

Happy 4th Birthday Sweet Baby Girl, Kirsten! We love you So much!!!

One Proud Momma...

I just wanted to take a second to tell all my readers (not that I have many) that I am one proud Momma today. We got a report that Elijah (our oldest, 5 1/2), who has been getting awful reports every week since he started kindergarten because he talks too much, but today his report was all EE's (which means EXCEEDS expectations!) After months of getting NME's (not meets expectations) with the occasional ME (meets expectations) getting a COMPLETE week of EE's is sooo awesome!!

I am so proud of our lil boy!



We will be making a trip to the beloved Target tonight for a "reward"!

Why?

Why do we allow ourselves to get angry when we are stuck in traffic on our way home? When there are people who would do anything to have transportation to take their families to and fro.

Why do we worry and fret over the cable bill (always too high), the cell phone bill (always some random charges), and the price of gas? When there are so many people every day that worry about where their next meal is coming from..or kids that worry about whether daddy will come home sober and not beat them tonight. Why?

Why do we always get ourselves so involved in ourselves that we never see the hurting world around us?

I am so guilty of this. It hurts my heart to know how guilty of this I actually am. God provides so much for me but I still somehow manage to complain, gripe or whine about something in my day.

It is ridiculous. I am striving to be different. I want to be more patient with my kids, less apt to judge someone by their appearance, slow to anger. I want these things so badly.

But how do I get there? I know the obvious answer is to realize that God is so mighty and powerful and will help you through everything. But I know that God alone can't do this. It is me, changing my ways, and relying on God to see me through. I know I can do it.

Will you join me?

I pray you will.

"Therefore, my beloved brethren, let every man be swift to hear, slow to speak, slow to wrath; for the wrath of man does not produce the righteousness of God." (James 1:19)

3rd Doctor Appointment

Yesterday afternoon (02/11/2010) I had my 3rd OB appointment. I love going to these appointments because they make you feel sooo much better about your pregnancy. Here are my/the baby's stats:

-Gained 3 pounds

-14 weeks 5 days pregnant

-Baby's heartrate was 152

-Blood pressure was perfect (110/60)

We have our next appointment on March 11th, 2010 at 9:30 a.m. and that is also my next ultrasound and we get to find out what we are having!! Hopefully the baby will cooperate perfectly!

My morning sickness has worn off (mostly, I still have a few bouts of it every now and then) now. I am starting to slowly get my energy back, which I love! My appetite is mostly pretty good..some days I have what feels like "knots" in my stomach and makes it hard to eat much but on those days I usually just eat smaller portions more often.

I can't wait until March 11th!!

Happy "early" Valentine's Day to everyone!

One of THOSE Days...

Yesterday I had one of THOSE days...you know the one I am talking about.

The one where you wake up cheerful and in such good spirits because your father in law tells you there is about 4 inches of snow on the ground (IN THE SOUTH!). Then you call your boss to see about work and she tells you...We are going to wait until noon..call me at noon and we will see how the roads look and then decide on whether to go to work or not. SWEET! I get at least half the day off to play in the snow with the hubby.

Then you get a call from a co-worker saying the manager has said we aren't working all today and just come in tomorrow. SWEET, again! A whole day to spend cuddled up on the couch with the hubby and just relax.

Then at 8:45 a.m. just after you got done with breakfast and are snuggling on the couch you get a call from your manager saying that the roads were clearing (not!) and that everyone should come to work now. Are you kidding me?!?

So you get up (after waiting 15 minutes for your show to end) get dressed and ready for work. Drive to work (slipping and sliding the whole way) and start working. You realize you forgot your lunch so you have to walk to the mall (which is directly behind our building) and get some lunch. You and your co-workers suddenly realize as soon as you walk out the door that it is sleeting/raining. You decide to suck it up and walk anyways..you are pretty hungry at this point.

After lunch, your co-worker tells you that your manager walked by your office and saw you with your head down and said you looked like you had nothing to do. When in fact you had just laid your head down after typing a 21 page set of interrogatories and your eyes were starting to cross and your head hurt. But instead of asking YOU what was wrong...she talks about you behind your back and asks another co-worker if she needed you to help her with anything since you were "obviously" not busy! (THE NERVE!)

Your manager finally lets you all leave early at 3:30 due to the weather getting nasty again (imagine that!) and so you get your stuff together and head out to leave. You get 1 mile down the road and your car stops. ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!?!

You have no power steering and your battery light is on. The car is starting to spit and sputter...you manage to get your car to a parking lot which you happened to be right next to (THANK JESUS!) and turn it off. You call hubby, who tells you to turn the car off (duh...already done) and that he is on his way. Well it is snowing/sleeting outside so your car gets super cold super fast. Burger King is across the street so you walk over there to keep warm.

You might as well have some fries and a drink while you wait the 40 minutes for hubby to get there, right?! While waiting you just watched the cars slip and slide past on the road.

Hubby finally arrives and takes you back to your car and determines it is some belt that is broken/fallen off. He can't fix it in all this snow/rain/wind...so you leave your car there overnight..something you are not happy about because it is not a great area. Oh well, it is cheaper than a tow truck.

You head home with hubby..get half way there..and realize that you left your garage door opener in your broken down car. Hubby turns around and goes back to get the garage door opener because neither of you want to leave it there overnight. On the way back to get it, there is a stalled vehicle on the interstate that you nearly smash into because they do not have their flashers on!! (IDIOTS!)

You finally get back on the road home, make it home, eat some soup and go to bed. You are too worn out and too tired to do much of anything else!

Have you ever had one THOSE days?!? Well I did..Yesterday. It was awful!

Our Lives Recently…In Pictures

 

These are pictures from December-January!  I really hope to not get this far behind with sharing pictures of our babies again!!

Surgery Went Good!

Papaw had surgery yesterday. They were supposed to start at 11 a.m. but didnt take him back until about 1:30 p.m. My mom called me about 5:15 to tell me everything went well. They did 5 bypasses and the surgery was a success. But the doctor did tell Papaw that his lungs (he has been a smoker for many years) were awful. And that he needed to quit smoking immediately. He also told my grandmother (also a smoker for many years) that she needed to quit for her and my Papaw's sake. I hope she does. I know bad habits are hard to break but for their health I hope they both make the right decisions!

Thank you all for your prayers!! It really helped to ease my mind!

Horrible Blogger

I know I have been an awful blogger lately, I mean I can't tell you the last time (without going back and looking) that I posted pictures of our babies...I PROMISE to post some this weekend. The kiddos will be at their mom's so I should have some time to post.

I am sorry for the lack of pictures (and pleasant posts) I have been so busy with starting my second semester of school, being pregnant (finally starting my 2nd trimester), and working full time. On top of my wifely and (step) motherly duties!

So with that said..I am making a promise to update my blog with recent pictures of the kids and the hubby and me!

Thanks for being patient!

**UPDATE..I looked and the last time I posted any pictures of the kids (just one kid actually) was 12/2/09!! It was here on a Wordless Wednesday post..and that picture was from October!! Oh my..I am truly a horrible blogger!

Papaw Update

My Papaw will undergo a quaduple open heart bypass tomorrow at 11 a.m. at St. Vincent's Hospital in Little Rock, AR. The doctor has suggested and tried to get him to get a pacemaker but he is refusing. He states he is too young to retire and if he got a pacemaker they would not let him drive a truck anymore. Therefore, they are scheduling the surgery as normal. We are hoping he will change his mind, but that is his decision..not ours.

The doctor told him there is a 10% chance he could go into cardiac arrest on the table and die. Please continue to pray for my Papaw. This is such a tough situation. We are also not sure (he has never talked about it) whether he believes in Jesus Christ or not. So not knowing if he dies where he is going is a pretty painful situation.

My older brother, Jay is going to try and talk to him about it. I really hope that goes well!

Please keep our family in your prayers as we near the surgery tomorrow! Thanks!

Thank You Very Much!

Today I am linking up with Kmama over at The Daily Dribbles for another round of Thank You Very Much!  Head on over there for more funny Thank You’s!

-To the driver on the busiest interstate in Memphis who decided that going 25 mph, while you and 3 of your buddies stick your arms out the windows to hold onto the mattress you have on top of your vehicle that is obviously not strapped down (hence you are holding it down) and all during rush hour morning commute, causing all the unknowing people behind you to slam on their breaks while going 75-80 and swerve into other lanes to avoid hitting your ignorant self! Thank you VERY much!

-To my clients (yes I address these to them a lot) who think that putting the phone in direct contact with your mouth while leaving me a voice message is a good idea..therefore causing me to delete your message because I can not hear you which in turn makes you call me later that day asking why no one has called you back! Thank you VERY much!

-To the co-workers who think that they can eat/use everybody’s stuff in the kitchen without asking but then yelling and pitching a fit when ONE of your diet cokes is “missing”! Thank you VERY much!

-To this incessant sinus infection I have, that causes me to have the driest nose and therefore making it bleed at random intervals.  Thank you VERY much!

Want to join in on the Free Therapy?  Head on over to Kmama’s for some fun :)

Letting HIS Will Be Done

This is something I struggle with everyday. Letting HIS Will be done instead of what I want. I know I am not the only one who struggles with this but sometimes I feel so alone when I am going through a hard time with this.

My struggle right now is letting HIS will be done in my grandfather's (my mom's dad) health. Yesterday (Monday 02/01/2010) my Papaw had a heart attack. My grandma rushed him to the ER where they stopped the attack and admitted him to the hospital. They said originally that they would need to do an angiogram to determine where the blockage is and then place stents. Well, after the angiogram was performed the doctor told my mom and grandma that things were not as they originally suspected. They were worse. Papaw would need to be med-flighted over to the AR Heart Hospital and need to undergo an open heart surgery. This scares me to death seeing as his heart is already so weak!

I know that God has his own plan for all of us but I want my Papaw so badly to stay here with us. I am not ready to let him go! I want him to meet his new great-grandbaby! I know that is so selfish but I can't help it. That is the human in me.

So I am most definitely struggling with letting God's will take precedence over mine. It is hard. But I am trying hard too! I am praying daily that HIS will be done. I know things will be ok if Papaw goes to heaven but it is not going to be an easy road for my family. My grandmother is an alcoholic, I worry so much over what will happen if she is left widowed. My family is in AR. I live in TN. I am about 150 miles from them. I want to be able to be there and take care of everything but I have my family and my life here to take care of too. So that is causing me a lot of guilt. My mom is there and she is handling things pretty well (I guess as well as expected).

But I am struggling constantly with trying to not be so selfish in wanting things done my way...It is ultimately not our decision..but HIS!


**Update**

I just talked to my mom and my Papaw will be having a quadruple bypass. The date of the surgery is still unknown. My grandma is drinking pretty heavy right now and we are all worried about her. They have not transferred him to the AR Heart Hospital yet but they will be doing that before tonight. Thanks for the prayers!